Back to the basics

So I find it latley that I lack the motivation to do just about anything creative or productive. Fantastic yes? Not really. I've been in a borderline funk and deep deep creative slump for more that a couple of months now and it's really getting annoying, which you'd think would motivate me to actually do something, cause you know get mad and get cracking yeah? Well, sort of. After being off for about 6 days or so due to the turkey day and a three day weekend bender to where all major organs hurt afterwards I have decided to kick it in the ass already. Talking to a few friends who actually give good advice I've actually come to a few core issues of why I am where I am.

First off apparently it's time to maybe find a girl again. It's been over a year now since the break up with the, well, ex. I've had my fill of short flings and one night stands so forth, it's time to "settle down." Now that still leaves me in a bit of a pickle cause I really don't want to settle down right now. Least not in anything serious. I've spent the past year focusing intently on my career, which has paid off. I'm at the top of my game in my job, I've built my own reputation and it's a clear path ahead, but for the most part its been hard carrying all that just about alone. I've got great neighbors who have all helped me through the hard parts but it's nice to always have someone there by your side just about 24/7 who you can do anything with at any time.

On that note, however, I've discovered that I'm a grade A workalholic. Figure that yeah? Finding that I work 12 hour days, 6 days a week and more and don't really mind it. Doing if for the money and when I'm actually done I go home and attempt to work some more. Well.....I'm not sure what to do about this. I'm dedicated to almost everything I'm involved with but I know I need some me time once and a while. To take a drive, write something (gee start a blog why don't you huh?), or just, you know, relax. I need to buy a boat.

I'm fat. Lets face it, I'm not the 5'11, 185lb swimming, sailing, boxing stud I used to be. So I'm working on that. Spending 85 quid a month on a boxing gym and yeah I'm using it. So that's that, we'll see where that goes. I'm borderline alcoholic. Yeah....for now I can live with that, I'm a fun drunk....i think. I need to stop smoking........eh.

So I guess as the year comes to a close. I know I've told myself I'd do a few things by years end, most coming to be. But since I never actually saved to take a trip to London for new years, I guess I'm getting a tattoo. We'll see how that goes, I mean I stuck to getting a kitty last year. So since I also bought this shiny new laptop it's time to go mobile and stick to my guns, start writing and all that other stuff I just said. How bout that yeah?