Counting Down the New Year

2:07AM. Layin in the bed. Once again taking stock of my life. Go figure. Well I guess its more appropriate than most times, being it New Years Eve. So what's the plan than yeah? Well.....not sure. Naturally out of the traditions laid down upon us from the generations past I need to make some for of "resolution." Well I did have one, kind of one left over from this year, although it was a one or the other deal. Instead of getting a tattoo I got me kitty, Tiny Iota. I think the better choice for the time. So that leaves this year with, well, the tattoo. So that, budget willing, will happen within January. So what exactly do I expect to keep to this coming year. Honestly I've no clue. I guess I should focus more. I've got so much going for me now. Upcoming job promotion, film projects rolling in. I need to indulge more in my starving creative side, skip town more often. I've got a wonderful girl, should probably not screw that one up, although this one is pretty hard too. Honestly life is pretty good right now.

I think back to what I had set out for myself few years ago after high school. By 25 to be well off (i.e. financially stable) and know within my own community (i.e. people know my name in my industry and so forth) and along a few other goals I'm pretty much there. I make decent money as is, with the promotion i will be on top of the world with that, I won a regional award within my company, I've met several people who I've never met who know who I am, it's fantastic really.

Yeah, even though I've worked my ass of to get where I am now I see this year as an accomplishment year, and this coming year as a focus year. I'm on top of my game, and my ego has grown with it a bit. Seriously I'm the man in my own right at work. I dunno, we'll see, definitely time to focus and rekindle some of those old favs like playing music and so forth. I'd say loose wait or something cheesy like that but I'm already working on that, being back in the gym and so forth. So we'll see, I've got a great girl, great friends, great job, great potential and I think a year of near agonizing lonelyness and doing nothing but work and drink was a good thing after all.

Republican debate.....complete and utter ballocks

So I’m sitting here. Watching the tele, specifically the “CNN/YouTube” Republican Debate. And what a set of utter pillocks. Now I’m no political activist, I’ve my own views on how to run this country. But honestly some of the answers given and naturally since it’s by YouTube, some of the questions given where just to laugh at. I don’t know. Between all the angles, all the candidate on all the sides, where oh where is the shining light for me? Not too sure it’s there really. And I’ve found a disdain for Christian Conservatives, maybe it’s the god hugging, maybe it’s the slick back hair, which I must say it looks like they’re all from stepford. Really…..all kind of creepy. But in essence it’s all pointless since in our society one man’s right is another’s wrong be it Iraq, China, Immigration, health care etc..etc..etc… I personally think that it’s time to look inward and stop policing the world. Where does it stop? The worlds problems are too much for one country to take on so until we have a world government of sorts than what’s the point? People and cultures will always have differences and until society as a whole matures to the point that we can deal with those differences than we must take care of ourselves and unify our own society.

Back to the basics

So I find it latley that I lack the motivation to do just about anything creative or productive. Fantastic yes? Not really. I've been in a borderline funk and deep deep creative slump for more that a couple of months now and it's really getting annoying, which you'd think would motivate me to actually do something, cause you know get mad and get cracking yeah? Well, sort of. After being off for about 6 days or so due to the turkey day and a three day weekend bender to where all major organs hurt afterwards I have decided to kick it in the ass already. Talking to a few friends who actually give good advice I've actually come to a few core issues of why I am where I am.

First off apparently it's time to maybe find a girl again. It's been over a year now since the break up with the, well, ex. I've had my fill of short flings and one night stands so forth, it's time to "settle down." Now that still leaves me in a bit of a pickle cause I really don't want to settle down right now. Least not in anything serious. I've spent the past year focusing intently on my career, which has paid off. I'm at the top of my game in my job, I've built my own reputation and it's a clear path ahead, but for the most part its been hard carrying all that just about alone. I've got great neighbors who have all helped me through the hard parts but it's nice to always have someone there by your side just about 24/7 who you can do anything with at any time.

On that note, however, I've discovered that I'm a grade A workalholic. Figure that yeah? Finding that I work 12 hour days, 6 days a week and more and don't really mind it. Doing if for the money and when I'm actually done I go home and attempt to work some more. Well.....I'm not sure what to do about this. I'm dedicated to almost everything I'm involved with but I know I need some me time once and a while. To take a drive, write something (gee start a blog why don't you huh?), or just, you know, relax. I need to buy a boat.

I'm fat. Lets face it, I'm not the 5'11, 185lb swimming, sailing, boxing stud I used to be. So I'm working on that. Spending 85 quid a month on a boxing gym and yeah I'm using it. So that's that, we'll see where that goes. I'm borderline alcoholic. Yeah....for now I can live with that, I'm a fun drunk....i think. I need to stop smoking........eh.

So I guess as the year comes to a close. I know I've told myself I'd do a few things by years end, most coming to be. But since I never actually saved to take a trip to London for new years, I guess I'm getting a tattoo. We'll see how that goes, I mean I stuck to getting a kitty last year. So since I also bought this shiny new laptop it's time to go mobile and stick to my guns, start writing and all that other stuff I just said. How bout that yeah?